3 months!

Happy 3 month birthday boogie!!!! Time does fly when you're having fun and you, my dear, are the most fun I've ever had.

You're "talking," smiling, yelling, rolling, grabbing, smacking, and your favorite: standing! I think you'd stand all the time if you could. Its so crazy seeing your little booty standing like a big girl! Slow down booger! You're too small to be doing that!

What we've been up to the last month: Well we've been doing lots of napping :). You're sleeping in your crib and sleeping much better might I add, but your naps are usually on the couch with me.

We've been to the pool a few times. The first day you screamed because it was freezing. Now you love it! You even fell asleep while I was holding you in it the other day with Stacy and Ava.

My least favorite, I went back to work which means I spend 14+ hours a day, 3 days a week away from you and missing you like crazy. I seriously spend my free time at work looking at pictures of you, texting to see how you are doing or talking about you to everyone. You get to spend lots of alone time with daddy, which he enjoys most of the time, but he knows you miss me. "Momma does it best," its daddy's new favorite phrase. A part of me is glad to be back to work because I love what I do, but I wish I could take you with me! The second I get home, I steal you from daddy. I hate getting home so late and having to put you to bed because I just want to snuggle all night.


I love cuddling with you! I love the Moby wrap (which is where you are sleeping right now as I type this!). I love that we can cuddle and I can still clean and multitask.

I love kissing your sweet little face. I love when you play with my hair or touch my face. My biggest love is when I smile at you and you smile back. You melt my heart with that little grin. Those are my favorite smiles: the ones I don't even have to be silly or try to work for.

You've changed so much in 3 months. I want time to slow down, but I love seeing your personality come out. You're such a sassy smartypants! :-) Just like your momma. You have a temper and go from asleep to screaming in 0.3 seconds and you hate being messed with when you're grumpy. Just like your daddy. :O You also have the longest legs I've ever seen on a baby! You definitely did not get those from me! I'm excited to see what is to come!




Love you so much!!! XOXOXOX

Well its been awhile

Oh Molly...you've kept me so busy I haven't been able to update in forever! I haven't touched my computer in weeks! You're giving me a little break here (sleeping on my chest after a rough day...) So here it goes!

Well you're here! You graced us with your presence April 8, 2011. Best day of my life. You are amazing. I can't even explain to you the amount of love your daddy and I have for you. You are so beautiful, smart and sassy. I loved your newborn phase...you ate, slept and snuggled. You were tiny!!! Then all of a sudden you are 2 months old.

Where has time gone?!? I love this new phase as well. Its so fun seeing you grow and seeing your personality start to come out. You are now holding your head up, rolling from you belly to your back, "talking," reaching for things (including my face which I LOVE), holding onto your toys and smiling every now and then. You are quite the hard crowd! It takes a lot to get a grin out of you Miss Serious! You do well most nights in the sleep department, but you were a little mean to momma last night! But as I say a lot "you're lucky your cute!" :)

Its so true that babies grow up too fast. I just can't fathom how fast its happening. I have to go back to work in just a few weeks and I hate it! I love our days together, even the bad ones. I hate the thought of missing any of your "firsts." I hate having to leave you for so long. I hate thinking that I won't be here to comfort you when you're having a bad day. Its going to be hard, but its whats best for us! I'll keep telling myself that and hope I believe it soon! :-)

In other news:

We had your 2 month appointment today. You're now 8lbs, 1 oz and 21 inches long. Tall and skinny like your daddy (but thankfully, you look like momma :-P, just joking daddy!) You had to get 3 shots and it was awful. I never thought I'd be one of those moms that cry when their babies get shots, but I totally was. I've never seen you in so much pain. It was so heartbreaking! Luckily you are a tough little gal and it only lasted for a couple seconds.

I will try to keep this up to date so friends and family can see how you're growing and hopefully one day you can read this and know what you were like as a baby (and all the laying around I did to keep you healthy! :D) I love you baby girl!

36 weeks!

Today we hit 36 weeks! So exciting to have made it this far! Its amazing how much I can love this little peanut already. She is the most important thing in my life already and she isn't even here. I'd honestly do anything for her (like being on bedrest for 12 very long weeks) and hope that I make the right decisions. I want her to have the best life possible and I will do whatever I can to make sure that happens!

Stats from today:
AFI(fluid level): 9.0
Weight: 5.4 lbs!
Percentile: 13th, looking good! 


Hopefully our next post will be announcing Molly has arrived! :-D 

34wk stats!

This is going to be just a quick update of stats from today!

Fluid: 9.5, not the best but "ok"
Weight: 4.6 lbs! A whole pound in 2 weeks! Go Molly!
Percentile: 12th. Better than 10, but still low.
My blood pressure is AWESOME and I actually lost 2lbs in the past week. WOOHOO! :-)

And cute ultrasound pictures from today:

She might be small but look at those chunky cheeks! Wonder where she gets those... :-) She had both of her hands in front of her face so its not the best picture we've gotten of her, but I'm happy anytime they print me pictures. I'm glad they don't charge per print!

Of all the ultrasounds I've gotten this is actually our very first foot picture! The ultrasound tech says they always look huge, but I mean that is one big foot.

Last but not least: yay for 34 weeks!!! Its flying by. Can't wait til she is here!

Good day

Well we have a new weekly routine! I stopped at Starbucks this morning because I was craving my pepermint white mocha I used to get every morning I worked. Molly enjoyed it lots! We passed the NST with flying colors and she was very active during the ultrasound. The ultrasound tech even said "whatever you did this morning, do it every week!" Easy enough! :)

We also lucked out and got a free 3D picture. The u/s tech said Molly wasn't a good candidate for it because the lower amount of fluid makes it harder to get a good shot. I'm happy with what she got! This is Molly's "I love Starbucks" happy face. LOL

She's gained almost a full pound in the last 2 weeks! She's now 3.6lbs and still in the 25th percentile. Her stomach is still a little small. The plan is still delivery around 37 weeks unless she has a big growth spurt, then we'll just let her hang out in there. 

So yay for good news! :) 

Meeting Molly in 6 weeks!

Biggest news of today: I'll most likely delivery around 37 weeks as long as nothing goes wrong before then! IUGR babies tend to grow better on the outside vs the inside. Its nice to know that I have about 6 weeks left! I've been on bedrest 7 weeks already, so 6 weeks seems do-able! Hopefully she'll behave until then and preelampsia stays away.

She's given me something to think about: c/s or induction? Of course I'd rather be induced, but my cervix will most likely not be favorable to an induction. Oh well-I'd rather try! Worst case scenario is that I end up with a c/s anyways.

{Just throwing in at this time that we will not be telling ANYONE when we go into the hospital (so all of you ladies I work with, please no fb posts!). Charlie and I have decided we don't want extra people in the room during delivery and would like some time alone with our baby girl before we have visitors.}

In other news: My fluid is still around 12 and we passed today's NST thankfully!

Spoke with my doctor regarding the growth scan last week and Molly's growth is just fine: She's in the 25th percentile. She's small, but we knew that!

Another not-so-good day

Molly failed another NST today. Luckily I already had that extra ultrasound scheduled at the office. My fluid is up to 11.8 and we got a BPP of 8/8, PERFECT.

Apparently the u/s tech from last Thursday didn't have a clue as to why I was to come back for a repeat ultrasound today and then again on Thursday. From what I learned today, the doctor on call wasn't aware that my fluid started out at 6.1. So to her, 10 seemed low, when really its pretty high. She was also concerned that it was 10.8 before, then decreased to 10.0 last Thursday. So that was the reason I had to have an ultrasound today. Well and because she failed another NST.

I'm nervous every time we go in for an NST now. I don't get how she was super reactive at 24 weeks with a decreased amount of fluid and now that she is expect to look better with more fluid, she doesn't! Darn it Molly! Such a girl :)

Wish us luck for Thursday!

Good news-I think?

First off...30 weeks today. YIPPIE!!! And I got my girl scout cookies to celebrate :P  

Thursdays are now my jammed packed, busy day. Today I had another NST, appointment with the NP since my doc is out of the office this week then an ultrasound. Everything went good, at least I think (hence the title).

Ultrasounds shows that my fluid is still around 10 which is good, its stable. My last growth scan was 3 weeks ago and estimated that Molly was about 1 lb 12 oz. Today they estimated 2 lbs 9oz. While that looks and sounds like great growth, apparently the two difference machines at the different offices (MFM/my doctor's office) shows a problem. 

The scan 3 weeks ago was done by MFM; their machine somehow put Molly at an overall 40th percentile, even though her head and abdomen are under the 10th percentile. At my doctor, the ultrasounds shows that she is way below the 40th percentile. So it looks as if she is falling behind even though she has had significant growth in the past 3 weeks. All of this is confusing and from what they said is basically just a difference in the way the computer generates the percentiles. Plus my doctor told me from the beginning that MFM always measure higher/bigger than the machines at my doctor's office for some reason.

(I would also just like to add as a mini vent that since my doctor is out of town, I feel like I am not getting told as much. My doc is very good about pulling out the ultrasound report, sitting down beside me and explaining everything about it. Today I was just told "she's looking good. She's small, but we've known that-that isn't any new news." I like having the details! Tell me what's still small-just her head or abdomen? Or now overall she's looking small?)

So my doctor's partner that was covering for her today suggested to the NP that we repeat the scans on Monday to make sure everything really does look okay. Sounds good to me. My doctor is back in on Tuesday and I'll get the full story Thursday from her. Until then please keep praying that Molly grows nice and big and stays inside for another 5-7 weeks at the least. 

Last but not least, my first shower is the Saturday and I'm super excited to see all of my friends and family that I haven't seen in awhile! Hoping the weather is as good as it says it will be! 

Nap time! :) 

Her first "F"

Finding a title today was easy. We failed our first NST! Molly's first (and last) F. I had to go down to ultrasound to make sure everything was ok. She got a perfect score on her biophysical profile. I think she just really likes having ultrasounds done! I was scared for about 2 seconds that I was going to have to stay on the unit longer than I had hoped, but like always, Molly is perfect on ultrasounds. :)

Update

I've decided that I'm tired of coming up with a new title everytime so from now on they will all be known as "UPDATE" LOL clever, I know...

NST today: Molly was being super sleepy and wasn't showing off an impressive strip. A big cup of apple juice later and we were sent on to the ultrasound. Thankfully the juice woke her up a little bit.

Fluid level is now 10.88! Growth scan moved to next week since I'm no longer at MFM.

She's back head down, at least for this week. I had a feeling she had turned again because earlier this week as I was sitting on the couch reading, I actually saw my belly moving. Coolest. Thing. Ever. I mean, yes I've seen it happen many times before, but its just totally different now that its MY belly and MY baby making it move. :)

That's it for today! Off to nap. :D

Yay!

This will be a very short update. My appointments are in the process of being switched around. I might end up having my NSTs at the office vs the unit (I don't know if they'll be as nice with letting us get away with our little variables as the girls on the unit have been... :/ Molly better shape up!).

Got my labs back...

Urine protein was 160 (anything 300 or over is considered mild preeclampsia...so BOOYAH!)
Glucose was 92, so I passed! No gestational diabetes here. I kinda want to buy a cake to celebrate considering I've been telling myself I'd have to cut the sweets for the next 11 weeks. Another BOOYAH is deserved.
All other labs they ran are "normal"

That's it for today. Having my NST and ultrasound tomorrow. Oh and they aren't doing growth tomorrow because they messed my schedule up so I have to wait yet another week. Oh well :) Can't wait to get out of the house tomorrow!

I just LOVE good news!

Today I went into my doctor's appointment thinking I was going to talk my doctor into letting me skip every other week for my MFM (high risk dr) appointments. Instead, she  surprised me and said I can just stop going to MFM and do normal ultrasounds weekly at her office. WHAT! Really? Heck yes! :D I LOVE THAT!

Turned in another 24 hour urine protein collection so I'm hoping for more good news there...and even more good news saying that I passed my glucola test. But hey, if everything else looks good then I'll take being a gestational diabetic. I mean that's not the worst thing that could happen. I'd rather have to watch my blood sugar and change my diet vs showing signs of preeclampsia at this point. If only I could pick :) 

Last but not least: I'm 28 weeks today! That was the first goal I had in mind a month ago when I was in the hospital thinking that I could deliver a pre-term baby at anytime. Next goal: just 2 little bitty weeks=30. And my first baby shower :D 

Once again, thanks for all the thoughts and prayers. Let's hope all my labs come back normal! :) 

Go Molly!

During the NST and ultrasound today I learned that Molly is officially a feisty little wiggle worm. She wouldn't stop moving throughout either appointment. Yay for an active happy baby! Speaking of...AFI is now a little over 10, YIPPIE! :D Hence the title "Go Molly!" She's doing great and its making me feel much better. She's switched herself back to her favorite position: breech, with her head directly under my belly button. 

In other news, I'm very thankful for bedrest with this awful ice/snow storm coming our way. (Sorry for all of you that have to be out in it, and PLEASE BE SAFE!) I'm praying its all cleared up by my appointments Thursday. 

So I'll end with a few face shots that I got of peanut today :) The ultrasound tech said she looked like she was grinning in a couple of them :) 

Oops!

So I've been called out by a few ppl about me skipping Thursday's blog. I'm so sorry guys, didn't know it was that important to you! :)

I was being lazy and there isn't much of an update to give. NST was good, even though the computers were down when mine was scheduled (sorry!). My doctor is very happy with the results of the growth scan from Monday. She said even though Molly is still small, she's showing growth. So yay to that. My b/p in her office was 128/72 so she was very happy with that. She's very optimistic that we will make it further than we thought (yay!). I get to skip another week of my 24 hour urine protein collection.

But really...My glucola test is this coming Thursday (to see if I'm gestational diabetic) and I'm not looking forward to it. I've been telling myself since before I even got pregnant that I would probably end up with gestational diabetes, but really its ok if I don't! Plus I hear the glucola drink is awful.

That's all I've got today. Sorry for being late with the update :-D. I'll have more after our ultrasound on Monday.

Just another Monday...

Passed another NST, go Molly! Then off to MFM. Luckily instead of waiting the hour and a half between appointments, they got me in right away. :) AFI (fluid level) is still 9, yippie! They did the growth scan this week also...she weighs 1 lb, 12 oz which puts her overall in 40th percentile. That's great news considering two weeks ago we were in about the 5th percentile! Bad new, or I guess the not-so-good news: her head and abdomen are still on the small side, under the 10th percentile. This means I still have to see MFM (high risk docs) every Monday for ultrasounds. That really doesn't bother me that much, its awesome to peek in on Molly and see what she's up to.

In other big news...she's now head down. She's been breech since our 12 week ultrasound so its kinda a big deal (the way I see it, she has enough fluid to do a major movement like that, so that makes me happy). Doesn't mean she'll stay that way, but its good news for this week! I remember telling Charlie, my hubby, that I think she flipped Saturday night. I said "she's moving so much and whatever she just did was BIG. I think she just flipped..." he said I was crazy. Well BOO YAH! Point for me :)

Again, thanks for the thoughts and prayers! They're working so keep it up! :) Now I'm off for a late nap! Appointment days always wear me out :D

Weekly appointment update

Ok guys! I'll try to remember that not all of you reading this are OB nurses :P

Passed another NST (non stress test)! My appointment went great! I got approval to go out to lunch with friends or visits twice a week as long as I take it easy and sit. So if anyone wants to grab some food out, just let me know! She said we'd revisit the activity limitations after the growth scan (ultrasound to measure baby's growth) Monday. I might even be able to go out shopping once a week or something crazy like that! :)

I'm excited to share that because my last 24 hour urine protein collection was lower, I get to skip it this week! Woot woot! That's a big deal to me! Peeing in a "hat" and pouring it into a jug at 4am is not as fun as you'd think it would be!

That's pretty much it for this week. Excited for lunch tomorrow with Jessica, followed by a weekend home with the hubby doing a whole lotta nothing! Wish us luck for the growth scan Monday!

Good news!

NST (non-stress test) was great today. Molly is so active as soon as that monitor hits my belly, she goes crazy! My ultrasound at MFM (high risk doctor) afterwards showed that our AFI (amniotic fluid index) is now 9! WOOT WOOT! That's "normal," on the low end of normal, but still! I'll take it! The nurse at my doctor's office also called and said my 24 hour urine protein from last Thursday-Friday was 141, which is down from the 250 in the hospital! Yay!

So its a day for great news! I'm excited that everything is looking normal, at least for this week. :) Another NST and appointment with my doctor on Thursday and I'm really hoping to get the okay for a shopping trip Friday.

Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers! They are working! :D

First NST/Weekly appointment

Had our first weekly appointment and NST (non-stress test) today and I'm happy to say I'm back home!

I got all of my biweekly NSTs and weekly appointments scheduled up until March 28, 35 weeks. Also picked up my bucket to collect my 24 hour urines (yay...).


That's all I have for today! I have another NST Monday then see MFM (high risk doctor) for another ultrasound afterwards. I'll have another update then! :)

Well I decided to start a blog...

I decided to start a blog because of all that's going on with Molly and I (mostly so I can stop irritating my facebook friends that don't care :P). Oh and I guess I won't be doing much of anything else since I'm on bedrest now :D.

So lets start with last week when all the "drama" began.

I went to my normal 24 week appointment (at 10am) knowing that we were going to repeat an ultrasound, because they couldn't get a good shot of her heart, brain, or kidneys at our 20 week appointment. I noticed the u/s tech didn't say "everything looks great!" or anything positive, just that we got the shots and she'll pass on that we were done. Weird. They normally say that everything is good...

So I get back in the room to wait for my doctor. She walks in and says "you're fluid is looking kinda low...they didn't put a number just "low" so let's get you rescanned." After waiting about 20 minutes, I get to see Miss Molly on the big screen again.

I go back out to the waiting room while they try to find my doctor. Well go figure, my doctor got called for a delivery while I was being scanned! How dare her! :) The nurses there decided to have another doctor take a look at the numbers and her recommendation was that I needed to see MFM (high risk doc). The nurses came out to tell me all of this and said "We'll call you later today or tomorrow with info for that appointment, you're free to go."

WHAT? Free to go? No-I want to talk to my doctor. You can't just tell me that something is "off" and expect me to walk away carefree. I told them this; they said "well I guess you will just have to wait for her. It might be awhile so go get some food and come back." This was around 12:30.

Finally around 1:30 I saw my dr again. She said she'd recommend me seeing the high risk doctor for another scan because their machine is more accurate. At this time she also told me that Molly is measuring a little small as well as my fluid being low. She called MFM herself and sent me right up.

They scanned me and got an AFI (amniotic fluid index) of 6.1. Anything under 8 is "oligo." The MFM doc said she would like to admit me to the hospital, give me steroid shots to mature her lungs in case she has heart decels on the monitor and they need to deliver me. AT 24 WEEKS. Needless to say, I was a wreck and said I wanted to see my doc again.

So back to my dr office. I cried when she came in, told her I was worried. She said she thinks its going to be ok, but wants to be conservative about this to make sure nothing bad happens. Ok-can't argue with that.

At 3:40, 5 hours after I arrived for my appointment,  I'm an "obs" on the unit (which makes me feel much better than being full on "admitted"). They get me hooked up to the monitors, give me my first steroid shot, draw my labs, check my b/p (which of course was a little high-it had been a stressful day!), and start a 24 hour urine collection (to check for protein...preeclapmsia).

Molly looks great on the monitor so we get to take that off after awhile. My labs look fine, b/p is normal. My dr says as long as my urine comes back ok, I'll be homebound Saturday.

The next day around 2pm when I get put on the monitor, she has a little decel that got my b/p up and my heart pumping! Damn it, Molly-we're supposed to be going home! Don't do this stuff! My doctor decides to leave the monitors on and get another ultrasound with a bpp (biophysical profile).

After looking very cute on the ultrasound and making faces at us (me, Kera, Jessica) she scores 8/8 on her bpp and my AFI is now 6.8! WHOO HOO!

My urine collection is up at 4:30ish. It comes back about an hour later and has some protein (240ish) but isn't enough to mean anything at this point. I get to go home that night! YAY!

Another ultrasound at MFM Monday showed my AFI is now 7.5 (remember, 8 is "normal!!!!") MFM recommends a follow up in a week to check it again. Yes! I get to stay home another week!

Tuesday my dr office calls me with their plan: NSTs (non-stress tests) twice a week on my unit in triage: every Monday and Thursday, weekly appointments with my dr on Thursdays, and weekly 24 hour urine protein collection. Ugh. Ok. I can do that...

So now you guys know everything I do! :D I'm praying I'm not getting preeclampsia. Praying I get to stay home. Praying Molly stays in until spring. Praying she gets big. Praying my fluid gets back to normal. That's a lot of praying...sorry to be bothering you so much, God! :)